There's a pain pulsing in the front of my brain. I'm unnaturally tired and this warm room isn't helping.
G. was talking in her sleep a while ago in a very unnatural voice. Very unsettling.
Drool and urine. Urine and drool. It's a charmed life I lead.
Pause.
"Yeahhh!" Pat Sajack yells from through the wall. I never could stand this show. "The Price is Right" depresses me as well. Just the thought of styrafoam makes me cringe. *Shudder*
On Oprah today she was talking to swingers. When one couple mentioned "two full swaps" after talking about things getting erotic on the dance floor I laughed out loud nevously and left the room. If there's one thing I don't want to hear about while I'm at work it's sex, esp. regarding chubby middle-aged accountants, dance floor eroticism and "full swaps." Esp. Esp. considering the huge prude I've become in my old age.
I went to the bathroom earlier to pee and turned on the water while I was still peeing. I do this at home in order to get the water hot so I can wash my hands, same thing was happening here. But it reminded me of Allen once asking me about it, suspicious of my motives. As if i care if he hears me pee. I think he's afraid I'm going to go crazy one day.
And this reminds me of when T. left the dayroom before dinner, farted as she was walking, stopped in front of a picture hanging on the wall, stood there and tapped it a few times, stood completely still, then turned around and came back. All the while I'm thinking, "that's strange, I've never seen her do anything so OCD before." "What was that about?" I asked her on her way back. "I had to pass gas." No OCD. She does often think things are crawling around her crotch. She'll jump out of a chair, feel her ass and examine the chair. Fucking bizarre.
So, I'm doing a lot better with the writing this time. I just wish I had the patience for fiction, not just stream of consciousness. 8:07PM
8:19PM
England vs. Portugal tomorrow. I fear this may be the end, if not, Brazil or Italy will certainly kill them.
------------------------Now I've hit the wall.
...Chewing gum, night light, apple juice, shaving cream, Teddy Grahams, shampoo (V05), water pitcher, generic lotion. Blankets and gowns and styrafoam cups. Shadows. Hair grease, Sweet 'n Low, Tussy, Best of the O'Jays. A purple ruler?! Three individually wrapped string cheeses.
STOP PISSING YOURSELF!
I could say more. A lot more. But links say it with style. http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1585421464/103-5730302-1238221?v=glance&n=283155
Now you know where it lives.
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